I walked home a few nights ago without any lights. Usually that'd be no go but with the snow on the ground there's a clear enough distinction to keep on the path. It was cold to begin but I got used to it once I started walking. I kept thinking about the elk and the deer and I was wondering where the hell they sleep and what the hell they eat if the snow covers everything. I could probably google it.

 About halfway home I entered this clearing and the light of the night sky immediately caught my eye and it was glowing. I'd never seen the night sky glow like this, it seemed like the black space in between the stars was even glowing, like a t.v. does when it's on a black screen. There were so many stars, and I needed a moment like that, a reinspiration for what I'm actually doing here. I hadn't forgotten, I just hadn't had that religious moment, like when I see the milky way, in awhile. I had it and it made me feel so much better. I'm going to do it, I'm going to get it done, and I will be there. I will be at my destination. I will get the things that I want, that I need. I don't deserve them yet, I haven't put in enough work, but I will. I stood there for a good five minutes just staring and thinking until I got cold again and started walking.

 The snow outlines the trail because it's been pushed off to both sides by a plow and the ground is dark where the snow is white. And as I was walking the dark trail ahead of me looked like a figure in my upper peripheral and my imagination gave me chills. But I sped up and looked it straight in the eye till it went back to being a trail. I almost wished it was something evil, so I could confront it. I've been feeling confrontational lately...